星期二, 八月 29, 2006

10 Tips on How To Think For Yourself!

Thinking for yourself is one of those skills I had to learn as
I got older. I had a really bad habit of blindly following what an
authority figure would say without ever questioning the reasoning
behind it. Another example would be doing something a certain way
as this has always been the way it has been done. Well I have put
together some strategies here that I think will help you develop
your thought processes, to think in a more independent fashion. If
you can think of any more methods or strategies, let me know by
submitting a comment.

1) If in doubt - ask a question.

Don't be afraid to question things. Don't be afraid to offer a
question even though other people in your peer group have not
questioned before.

2) Place experience over authority.

If one reflects upon what the authority figure is conveying to you,
does it pan out with your real life experience? For example, if
someone tells you that all red heads are moody - have you
experienced this in your life?

3) Understand People.

Does the person communicating with you have an agenda that might be
influencing what they are telling you? What is motivating this
person? Why do you think they think this way?

4) Don't feel you have to follow the crowd.

Remember the old adage - if Johnny put his hand in the fire does
that mean you have to do that too?

5) Trust your feelings.

Trusting your "gut instinct" about something is often an over
looked trait. If something does not feel right to you there is
probably something wrong (or at least something seriously flawed)
with what you are being told.

6) Remain calm.

Remaining calm and collected will help you remain objective and
help you to think clearly. If you get caught up in a heated debated
and loose your cool, your capacity for rational thinking is
diminished.

7) Gather the facts.

Like any good thinker would do - gather all the facts before making
a judgment. Ask yourself do you have all the facts? Are there gaps
in your knowledge that is keeping me from the truth or from the
solution to a problem?

8) Look at Things from Different Perspectives.

If you are trying to solve a problem - try coming at it in a
different way. If one way hasn’t worked for you - try a different
one! Try and see ideas or concepts from different perspectives. For
example, would someone growing up in Japan think the same way about
a subject as someone from Ireland?

9) Cultivate Empathy.

It is easier to understand why people think the way they do if you
understand their situation. If I said "All red heads are moody and
I don't want anything to do with them!" - there could be a reason
for me to be saying this. Maybe I was bullied by a red head in
school for example. Empathizing with people helps you understand
that you may have a different opinion about something but that’s
OK!

10) Be Brave.

It takes courage to stand up and say “I don't agree with you." Be
kind to yourself, be patient and don't give up. If you want to
learn how to think more independently -it does take time.


  1. 有疑问就发问。不要害怕问问题,即便是别人都没问过的问题。


  2. 经验比权威更重要。如果有专家、权威人士要让你相信什么和你的实际经验向抵触的东西,不要被他们吓倒。


  3. 理解对方的意图。别人找你谈话的意图是什么?他们对你所说的话有没有什么背后的原因?


  4. 不要觉得你必须随大流。


  5. 相信自己的感觉。如果你觉得不对头,很可能真的有什么不对的地方。


  6. 保持冷静。保持冷静和客观可以让你头脑更清醒。


  7. 积累事实。事实是验证真理的唯一标准。


  8. 从不同的角度看问题。每个事物都有其多面性,尝试从不同的角度去认识问题解决问题。


  9. 设身处地。了解对方的处境才能更好的了解对方的想法。


  10. 勇敢。鼓励自己站起来说“我不同意”。不要害怕,经过磨练才能成长。


星期五, 八月 25, 2006

我生日

昨天,或许是前天我生日,23日。

这一天,Blogger7周年,Gtalk一周年,看来,我和web2.0还挺有缘的。

让我很郁闷的是,Jinwoo才86年的,Rexsong是83年的,Rokey也才81年的,他们在业内都已经积累了相当的声望和成就,我却还是一无所有。我必须要比每个人都勤奋,才能弥补我的过失。

很多时候,错误所产生的效果会被一级一级放大。

比如早上上班,晚出门了10分钟,路上就会变得堵了很多,在公车上待的时间,会比往常长20-40分钟,这很正常。然后因为到地铁站晚了,人多了很多,于是就挤不上,要等下一趟,或者下下趟。加起来,因为晚出门了10分钟,到公司就晚了30-60分钟。

我想,我在大学期间所犯下的错误,我大概要用一辈子的时间来弥补。

星期一, 八月 21, 2006

光明乳业推出新的常温奶产品。

昨天在家乐福发现光明推出一种新的产品……

名字我已经忘了,证明这名字取得很失败。

从宣传上来看,是针对蒙牛的特伦苏而推出的。也是走高端路线,卖纯正原产概念。

我觉得光明做得很失败,拿自己的劣势跟别人的优势斗,不想活了……

移动和联通

在上海买手机冲值卡,我每次都说我要一张移动的冲值卡,然后店员每次都会问我需要13几的……

然后我就会一愣,然后说139的……

另外,在上海,联通和移动的套餐资费也很接近,几乎是一样的。

由此,可能让群众觉得移动和联通是一家公司的?

星期日, 八月 20, 2006

转载:活在安达信的日子

凡是选择,总要有牺牲.

或者得到眩目的光环而牺牲健康,

或者得到安稳的生活而放弃那么一些梦想



今天从头到尾的看了一个曾经在深圳安达信工作过的同事写的文章,突然间有种想哭的冲动,以前的点点滴滴像泉涌一样的出现在眼前。在加入普华永道半年之后,我才第一次在记忆中完整的走回了以前活在安达信的日子。

大学毕业选择安达信是我在大三时的愿望,原因简单极了,只是因为老师跟我讲:“全球五大会计师事务所,安达信的工资是最高的。”一个刚刚走出校门的学生,除了高薪水以外还能奢求什么?在四年以前,安达信的入门工资是3800块。于是我在大四的第一个学期开始全力以赴的为我进入安达信做准备。我在大学时的学习很好,但是我的大学并不出名,安达信甚至根本不招我们学校的学生。我遇到的第一个障碍就简历这一关。“五大”是会计系学生趋之若骛的地方,我面对的是和清华、北大、人大和对外经贸大学生的残酷竞争,所以我整整花了一个月的时间去设计我的简历。为了不让人事部的眼光一下子停留在我的学校上,我简历的第一部分用了讲故事的手法,从一个小姑娘讲到一个毕业生,我当然竭尽所能的用了各种各样的修辞手法来描述我是一个多么多么不可多得的人才。凭借着当初在北青报学通社的底子,我的简历终于吸引了安达信的目光,我接到了一生中第一个面试通知。

我被通知去北大和北大的学生一起参加面试,并且是面试的最后一个。我顶着十月的寒风旷了一个下午的英语课,骑着自行车从红庙横穿了半个北京城到了北大。我整整早到了两个小时,我呆坐在那里,没有一个人跟我说话,北大的学生一个一个进去一个一个出来,脸上挂着自信的微笑。带着强烈的心理劣势,我见到了我一生中的第一个面试官:Thomas Leung,一个讲着很好普通话的香港经理。我很敬佩他坐在那里面试了一天还能带着礼貌的微笑毫无倦怠的跟我聊天。Thomas笑着跟我说:“你的简历里说你的‘英文听说读写俱佳’,那我们用英文来聊聊天吧。”我的心里当时后悔了一万遍自己写了那句话,但还是自信的点点头说:“好呀。”

之后的四十分钟,Thomas用极流利的英语跟我讲解安达信的审计理念和审计方法,可惜的是,我基本没有听懂。我装作很明白的样子微笑、点头,点头、微笑,直到Thomas问我“How many universities in
Beijing?
”的时候,我还在那里点头微笑。Thomas“嗯?”了一声,我这才慌张的回忆出刚说的最后一句话似乎是个疑问句的升调。就这样,在极度紧张中,我完成了第一次英文面试。两年以后,我无意中看到当时的面试记录,所有的方面我都是“优”除了“英文交流”。

我至今感谢Thomas在我的英文交流是“low”的情况下仍旧给了我第二次面试的机会,面试了三轮之后,我接到了安达信-全球五大会计师事务所中最激进的一家公司给我的offer

其实在进安达信之前,我就听说这里很苦很累,一个认识的在安达信工作的朋友跟我讲:“你好好考虑一下吧,这份工作让你失去了所有的私人时间,你必须自己承担压力和责任,因为没有人有余力来帮你。”我太低估了她这句话的意思,当我真的进入安达信开始正式工作的时候,我面临了无数次的放弃。

安达信新员工的培训在深圳,人人都称那是蜜月般的日子,我们认识了来自上海、深圳、重庆和广州的同事,大家在一起玩KILLER”,去酒吧喝酒跳舞唱歌,然后挂着黑眼圈在第二天的课堂上呼呼大睡。真正黑暗的日子在我培训完回到公司的第二周正式开始。

那时是99年,安达信接到了中国联通的IPO上市,这是一个三十一个省的大项目,可当时安达信总共的SENIOR好像还没有三十一个。没日没夜的工作也就此开始,所有的人都如临大敌。我和联通的第一次亲密接触是我需要给客户打电话确认坏帐的计提政策,SENIOR好像已经加了一个通宵的班,把客户的资料给了我简单交代了几句就匆匆忙忙去做自己的工作,留下了一脸无知的我。那时的我还根本不知道审计为何物,也从来没有见过真正的帐目,客户的资料我都不知道从何看起,我想起了朋友的那句话“你必须自己承担压力和责任,因为没有人有余力来帮你”。鼓了鼓勇气拿起电话,我拨通了吉林联通财务科长的手机:“您好,我是安达信的……”“安达信?!又是你们安达信?!每天八百个安达信的人找我都说是安达信的,我什么也不知道!嘟―――”我呆呆的举着电话一句话也说不出来。

当我以极为严重的口吻向SENIOR汇报这件事的时候,她只是轻描淡写的说:“很多客户都这样,你做长了就知道了,不必跟他们一般见识。”天哪,我想象的审计师生活应该是很风光很有面子的那种,难道我今后经常会被客户这样劈头盖脸的骂?在后来的日子里,我发现我也开始对客户的投诉和抱怨麻木不仁,我能够面对各种恶劣的客户在各种恶劣的环境下有条不紊的进行我的工作,因为我告诉自己:“暴躁其实是心虚的表现。”

在安达信第一年的我根本无法适应加班的生活,SENIOR们都没有准时下班的意识,公司里直到凌晨两三点钟还全是像雕塑一样对着电脑工作的同事。以前朋友的聚会,以前同学的饭局一概参加不了,有时候朋友们一起吃饭会给我打个电话问候我一下,那时我真的很想哭并且暗暗下定决心,我只在这里干一年,然后找一份新的工作过正常下班的生活。

我曾经听过两个SENIOR让我瞠目结舌的对话,一个说:“我昨晚休息的挺好的,凌晨四点趴在桌子上早上七点钟才醒。”另一个说:“哦!那你休息的真的不错呀!”听了这些话,我几乎要失声痛哭,天哪,这是一家什么样的公司!这是些什么样的员工呀!但是她们说的一点都不夸张,从九月份正式上班开始,我几乎没有在凌晨三点之前回家过,埋在纸堆里给客户打电话,写MEMO,习惯了客户的大叫大嚷,客户摔了我的电话后,我会起身上个厕所喝口水然后重拨刚才的号码把我需要的资料平心静气的再重申一遍直到客户同意提供。

偶尔实在太累了我会趴在桌子上休息一会儿,可是脑子里仍旧全是数字和未决事项,它们时时刻刻的提醒我我还有如山的工作要做,我连哭的时间都没有。和我一起进公司的很多同事一开始都适应不了如此大强度的工作,我们都才刚刚二十二岁而已,却要开始对一个上市项目的数字负责,SENIOR们很可怜,每天早上三点钟我们已经回家了,SENIOR才能开始审阅我们一天的工作。

我在洗手间经常听到同事哭的声音,我知道是她们的压力太大了,因为我实在受不了了也会躲在洗手间里哭一下,之后擦干眼泪继续战斗。有一次我在公司和一个SENIOR汇报工作,突然做在身后的另一个中国联通项目的in-charge senior在毫无前兆的情况下坐在自己的位子上号啕大哭,我们都默默听着,有人递纸巾给她,有人过去拍拍她的肩膀,却没有人去劝她,因为我们都知道,她只是想发泄一下,哭过之后仍旧有很多工作要做。

每每我跟别人说起我的工作有多辛苦,似乎别人都不是很理解,因为他们没有经历过我们所经历的生活。我在第一年工作的时候,有两次几欲崩溃的经历。一次是做一个小项目,出差出了一个月,早上跟客户一起8点钟上班,晚上加班到凌晨四点,一天只睡三个小时,就在项目最后期间,SENIOR和同我一起工作的另一个第二年的同事都病倒了,我必须要负责把这个项目的内部往来对平,这是我以前从未做过的东西,然而残酷的现实是,我只有三天的时间,因为三天之后我必须去沈阳参加另外一个项目的工作。在安达信,没有人找借口做不完也没有人会接受你做不完的理由,因为工作是自己的,别人没办法帮你。在去沈阳的前一天,我熬了一个通宵大哭着完成了我的工作,回家取了爸妈帮我收拾的行李第二天一早直奔机场。

第二次崩溃是因为做中国联通。长时间的工作,没有周日没有任何假期,没有约会也没有饭局,我真的受不了了,一天晚上12点多,在复印客户资料的时候,我紧紧盯着复印机上附带的巨大的自动订书器想:如果我现在把手指伸进去,我明天就能休病假了。我足足在复印机前驻足了十分钟抉择自己是否要这么做,但是我看了看坐在远处的同事,每一个人都神情严肃的在忙忙碌碌,我突然觉得我必须要背负起我的工作和责任,因为我们是一个需要Teamwork
精神的团体。我想,之所以当时没有一个人谎称自己发烧或者感冒不来上班也许就是因为同事的工作精神在互相感染,我们知道我们只有互相团结才能不漏掉任何环节的完成一个项目。责任,是我在安达信学到的第一节课。

这种生活是残忍的,我们在加速折旧自己的青春,我的一个同事曾经坐在我的对面,有段时间他觉得肚子疼,但是因为项目很紧所以疼了很久还没有去医院看病,直到有天疼得不行了才去医院做了检查,是直肠癌的晚期。那个同事和我一般大,通过了CPA考试,GMAT的成绩很好,但是后来我再也没有见过他。

同时这种生活也有着它无形的价值,我开始不惧的面对压力,我开始自信的认为我可以handle各种各样的客户,没有人可以质询我的工作能力和承压能力,就像我们在深圳培训时常放的那首歌一样“Simply the
Best
”。另外因为我们需要做英文的工作底稿,所以我的“英文交流”再也不会是“LOW”。

其实那时生活很简单,我们只需要工作就好了,同事之间的关系很单纯,没有谁会耍交际手腕或者想着法儿的套老板欢心,因为我们真的没有时间去想这些事。安达信的等级观念很严厉,比我早来一年的人都是我的上司,而且在安达信一年的工作经验足以让初到者惊叹,问问题的时候要先备课,不可以想也不想就去问,可以问“能不能这样做”而不能问“我该怎么做”。因为工作时间紧所以工作中不允许犯愚蠢的错误,有一次我因为一张凭证没有看清楚,被SENIOR骂了整整两个小时,但是私下里我们仍旧是很好的朋友。

然而这种生活真正的价值是从第二年我正式开始接触BA开始。

BABusiness Audit的简称,是安达信推行的前锐的审计观念,其核心是客户的内控风险,我们开始不拘泥于财务数字而需要涉足至企业的各个领域。

沈阳的一家客户是我所作的第一个BA方法审计的公司。那时我已经是一个第二年的员工,我们称为“ESA”意为“Experienced Staff”。因为公司里SENIOR奇缺,很多SENIOR因为工作太累或者工作原因另谋他职或者出国念书了。于是我带着一个第一年的同事做这个项目的前期工作。

白天,我们花十个小时的时间走访客户的采购部,销售部,市场部,设备部和车间,同各个方面的负责人谈话,了解企业如何运作,了解企业的采购流程,销售流程,生产流程和费用流程,说得口干舌燥,晚上回到酒店我已经一句话都不想说了。

晚上,我们需要把所有的流程用英文从头到尾描述一遍并且画出流程图,一个流程往往我们要从晚上八点钟写到早上五点钟,然后第二天八点又开始问另一个流程。一个星期下来,看着我和同事写的长达五十页的流程报告,除了满心的成就感以外就是满心的疲惫和倦意。一年的BA磨炼,我逐渐的开始善于和各种各样的人进行交流,以前和客户了解情况我总是怕客户把我当小孩子或者嫌我反应慢,因此我会很紧张。可是现在,我充满自信的坐在客户的对面绝对相信我可以理解客户所讲的一切并且快速的反应从脑子中找出流程中不合理的地方继续追问。

我不知道后来的安然事件是不是和安达信推行了BA有关,但是我可以肯定的是,BA对于个人而言是极大的挑战和锻炼,我们不再是单纯的财务审计而是更多的向咨询靠拢,对各个行业也都有了系统的了解。

我早就已经忘记了当初对自己“只在这里工作两年”的承诺,我开始喜欢安达信干净的同事关系和激进的工作方式。

我不常和朋友抱怨自己的工作辛苦,因为他们总是会说:“你挣得多呀。”以前在安达信的时候,我觉得自己的付出的得到不配比,然而现在到了普华永道才发现,原来安达信给的福利真的很好。我们每年都会长工资,长的比例在40%左右有时会更高,和其他四大不同的是,我们有加班费,一个SENIOR一个周末两天的加班费就可以高达四千块钱。然而其他四大SENIOR是没有加班费的。但是在安达信,没有人是为了加班费而加班,因为我们宁愿多出几个小时来补充睡眠。

就这样,我像个机器人一样在安达信工作了三年,参加了公司在马来西亚的Kinabalu组织的SENIOR的培训后,我成为一个SENIOR,一切平静直到安然事件的爆发。

美国司法部宣布正式起诉安达信休斯顿公司的时候,安达信在瞬间分崩离析,全球八万五千员工分别合并到了其他四大会计师事务所,只留了一个在瑞士的总部准备接受巨额的赔款和司法起诉。大中国地区和普华永道合并了。一切只是在瞬间的事,因为我们之前根本无暇顾及美国的安达信出了什么状况,我们也从来没有怀疑过这间“百年老店”抵抗外来压力的能力,然而一切与政治有关,安达信不可避免的成为了政治阴谋的受害者。一个金融巨人在自己营造的帝国里轰然倒塌。

那一天,我们仍旧在工作,因为我们还有很多工作没有做完,我们一边看CNN的报道一边马不停蹄的把手中的MEMO写完,心中的遗憾和伤感只有在偶尔抬头刚好看到同事的眼神时才会释放出来。是呀,我曾经的梦想,我的安达信在瞬间灰飞烟灭。

并到普华永道的时候,我已经是第二年的SENIOR了。生活基本没有改变,中国联通还是我们的客户,我以前做过的大多数项目为了方便客户也都转给普华永道去做,所以还是我的项目,我们仍旧是每天走出国贸的最后一批人,上了国贸楼下排队的出租车,出租车司机仍旧会盯着我们的IBM电脑问:“又是安达信的吧?”

这次合并也让我们丢了很多以前的客户,海洋石油是其中一个比较大的,因为普华永道本来的项目中有中石化,由于行业冲突,海洋石油被安永华明抢走了。这个项目我们以前派十五个人左右的TEAM去做,已经算很大的project了。海油的客户有次打电话过来告诉我们:“安永华明派了100个人来做我们的项目,可是你们以前为什么只用15个人就搞定了?”我们只有苦笑,安达信何尝不是这样?由于业务发展太快而人力资源不够,往往我们派去的人要比其他事务所缩水三倍左右。于是每个人要承担三个人工作的负担。

普华永道和安达信相比显得温和许多,人都很和气不急不躁,和普华的人一比较,我们才发现我们脾气都很大,做事激进、风风火火。有次一个以前安达信的SENIOR在和一个STAFF说完话后,一个普华的经理走过来对那个STAFF讲:“他是不是以前是安达信的?他不可以这种态度说话。”我们在旁边听着互相看了一眼,STAFF们的春天终于来了。

安达信虽然不存在了,但是在安达信以前学到的东西却会被我带走一生。我不怕客户再说我是小孩子,因为我四年的实际工作时间可能是他十年的时间加总。到了普华永道之后我们在努力学习普华永道的审计方法,普华毕竟是全球五大之首,相信这样一家公司一定也有和在安达信一样珍贵的公司资源和企业文化。以前安达信的人也丝毫没有感到过合并的压力,因为你不得不承认,实力才是较量的最终武器,唯一改变的,只是我们已经不再叫安达信。

我现在生活依旧如前,去年的七月份,我赶上了中外运海外上市的项目,刚刚轻闲了几个月的我又开始每天工作到凌晨四五点钟,有次48小时没有睡觉,从前一天早上十点坐到后天的早上十点。回到家看着镜子里脱了相的我,我连哭的力气都没有了。于是这个项目让我面对了选择这个职业后的第三次崩溃。

现在,我又在做另一个一大堆问题的企业的年度审计,随时面临着摩根斯坦利的调阅。

就这样,我依旧延续着以前的生活,加班睡觉然后睡觉加班,绝大部分时间和同事在一起,单纯的同事关系和激进而且努力的工作精神。

只是,没有了安达信。


Steve Jobs: Commencement Address at Stanford University


史蒂夫·乔布斯在2005年斯坦福大学毕业典礼上的演讲





















史蒂夫·乔布斯(Steve Paul
Jobs)苹果电脑公司和皮克斯动画公司(Pixar)首席执行官。以下是Steve
Jobs在2005年6月12日斯坦福大学毕业典礼上的演讲。



"Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish."求知若饥,虚心若愚



2 June 2005, Palo Alto, CA


  




 


Thank you.

I'm honored to be with you today for your commencement from one
of the finest universities in the world. Truth be told, I never
graduated from college, and this is the closest I've ever gotten to
a college graduation. Today, I want to tell you three stories from
my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.



The first story is about connecting the dots. I dropped out of
Reed College after the first six months, but then stayed around as
a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why
did I drop out?



It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young,
unwed graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption.
She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college
graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth
by a lawyer and his wife -- except that when I popped out they
decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl.



So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the
middle of the night asking, "We've got an unexpected baby boy; do
you want him?" They said, "Of course." My biological mother found
out later that my mother had never graduated from college and that
my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign
the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later
when my parents promised that I would go to college. This was the
start in my life.



And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a
college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my
working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college
tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no
idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was
going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the
money my parents had saved their entire life.



So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out
okay. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one
of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could
stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin
dropping in on the ones that looked far more interesting.



It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on
the floor in friends' rooms. I returned coke bottles for the five
cent deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the seven miles
across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the
Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into
by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless
later on. Let me give you one example:



Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy
instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster,
every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed.
Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal
classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do
this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying
the amount of space between different letter combinations, about
what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical,
artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I
found it fascinating.



None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my
life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first
Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all
into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography.
If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the
"Mac" would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally
spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, it's likely
that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped
out, I would have never dropped in on that calligraphy class, and
personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that
they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking
forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking
backwards 10 years later.



Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only
connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots
will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something
-- your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever -- because believing
that the dots will connect down the road will give you the
confidence to follow your heart, even when it leads you off the
well-worn path, and that will make all the difference.



My second story is about love and loss.



I was lucky -- I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz1
and I started Apple in my parents' garage when I was 20. We worked
hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a
garage into a two billion dollar company with over 4000 employees.
We'd just released our finest creation -- the Macintosh -- a year
earlier, and I had just turned 30.



And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you
started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was
very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or
so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to
diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board
of Directors sided with him. And so at 30, I was out. And very
publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was
gone, and it was devastating.



I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I
had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down -- that I had
dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David
Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so
badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about
running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on
me: I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not
changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love.
And so I decided to start over.



I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from
Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The
heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of
being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to
enter one of the most creative periods of my life.



During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT,
another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman
who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the world's first
computer-animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most
successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of
events, Apple bought NeXT, and I retuned to Apple, and the
technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current
renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family
together.



I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't
been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess
the patient needed it. Sometime life -- Sometimes life going to hit
you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that
the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did.
You've got to find what you love.



And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your
work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way
to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And
the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you
haven't found it yet, keep looking -- and don't settle. As with all
matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And like any
great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years
roll on. So keep looking -- don't settle.



My third story is about death.



When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you
live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly
be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the
past 33 years, I've looked in the mirror every morning and asked
myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do
what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No"
for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.



Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool
I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life.
Because almost everything -- all external expectations, all pride,
all fear of embarrassment or failure -- these things just fall away
in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important.
Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to
avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are
already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.



About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at
7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas.
I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this
was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I
should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor
advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is
doctor's code for "prepare to die." It means to try and tell your
kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell
them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is
buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family.
It means to say your goodbyes.



I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a
biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my
stomach into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a
few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was
there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope
the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare
form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the
surgery and, thankfully, I'm fine now.



This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope it's
the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it,
I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death
was a useful but purely intellectual concept: No one wants to
die.



Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get
there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has
ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very
likely the single best invention of Life. It's Life's change agent.
It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is
you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become
the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it's
quite true.



Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's
life. Don't be trapped by dogma -- which is living with the results
of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions
drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the
courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already
know what you truly want to become. Everything else is
secondary.



When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The
Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the "bibles" of my
generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far
from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic
touch. This was in the late 60s, before personal computers and
desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors,
and Polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form,
35 years before Google came along. It was idealistic, overflowing
with neat tools and great notions.



Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth
Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final
issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover
of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country
road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were
so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay
Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay
Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I've always wished that for myself. And
now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.



Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.



Thank you all very much.



谢谢大家。



今天,有荣幸来到各位从世界上最好的学校之一毕业的毕业典礼上。我从来没从大学毕业。说实话,这是我离大学毕业最近的一刻。今天,我只说三个故事,不谈大道理,三个故事就好。




第一个故事,是关于人生中的点点滴滴怎么串连在一起。



我在里德学院(Reed
college)待了六个月就办休学了。到我退学前,一共休学了十八个月。那么,我为什么休学?




这得从我出生前讲起。我的亲生母亲当时是个研究生,年轻未婚妈妈,她决定让别人收养我。她强烈觉得应该让有大学毕业的人收养我,所以我出生时,她就准备让
我被一对律师夫妇收养。但是这对夫妻到了最后一刻反悔了,他们想收养女孩。




所以在等待收养名单上的一对夫妻,我的养父母,在一天半夜里接到一通电话,问他
们「有一名意外出生的男孩,你们要认养他吗?」而他们的回答是「当然要」。后来,我的生母发现,我现在的妈妈从来没有大学毕业,我现在的爸爸则连高中毕业也没有。她拒绝在认养文件上做最后签字。直到几个月后,我的养父母同意将来一定会让我上大学,她才软化态度。




十七年后,我上大学了。但是当时我无知选了一所学费几乎跟史丹佛一样贵的大学,我那工人阶级的父母所有积蓄都花在我的学费上。六个月后,我看不出念这个书的价值何在。那时候,我不知道这辈子要干什么,也不知道念大学能对我有什么帮助,而且我为了念这个书,
花光了我父母这辈子的所有积蓄。



所以我决定休学,相信船到桥头自然直。当时这个决定看来相当可怕,可是现在看来,那是我这辈子做过最好的决定之一。当我休
学之后,我再也不用上我没兴趣的必修课,把时间拿去听那些我有兴趣的课。




这一点也不浪漫。我没有宿舍,所以我睡在友人家里的地板上,靠着回收可乐空罐的五
先令退费买吃的,每个星期天晚上得走七哩的路绕过大半个镇去印度教的
Hare Krishna 神庙吃顿好料。我喜欢Hare
Krishna神庙的好料。追寻我的好奇与直觉,我所驻足的大部分事物,后来看来都成了无价之宝。
举例来说:




当时里德学院有着大概是全国最好的书法指导。在整个校园内的每一张海报上,每个抽屉的标签上,都是美丽的手写字。因为我休学了,可以不照正常选课程序来,
所以我跑去学书法。我学了serif 与san serif
字体,学到在不同字母组合间变更字间距,学到活版印刷伟大的地方。书法的美好、历史感与艺术感是科学所无法捕捉的,我觉得那很迷人。




我没预期过学的这些东西能在我生活中起些什么实际作用,不过十年后,当我在设计第一台麦金塔时,我想起了当时所学的东西,所以把这些东西都设计进了麦金塔
里,这是第一台能印刷出漂亮东西的计算机。如果我没沉溺于那样一门课里,麦金塔可能就不会有多重字体跟变间距字体了。又因为Windows抄袭了麦金塔的使
用方式,如果当年我没这样做,大概世界上所有的个人计算机都不会有这些东西,印不出现在我们看到的漂亮的字来了。当然,当我还在大学里时,不可能把这些点点
滴滴预先串在一起,但是这在十年后回顾,就显得非常清楚。我再说一次,你不能预先把点点滴滴串在一起;唯有未来回顾时,你才会明白那些点点滴滴是如何串在
一起的。




所以你得相信,你现在所体会的东西,将来多少会连接在一块。你得信任某个东西,直觉也好,命运也好,生命也好,或者业力。这种作法从来没让我失望,也让我的人生整个不同起来。



我的第二个故事,有关爱与失去。




我好运-年轻时就发现自己爱做什么事。我二十岁时,跟Steve
Wozniak在我爸妈的车库里开始了苹果计算机的事业。我们拼命工作,苹果计算机在十年间从一间车库里的两个小伙子扩展成了一家员工超过四千人、市价二十亿
美金的公司,在那之前一年推出了我们最棒的作品-麦金塔,而我才刚迈入人生的第三十个年头,然后被炒鱿鱼。



要怎么让自己创办的公司炒自己鱿鱼?




好吧,当苹果计算机成长后,我请了一个我以为他在经营公司上很有才干的家伙来,他在头几年也确实干得不错。可是我们对未来的愿景不同,最后只好分道扬镳,董
事会站在他那边,炒了我鱿鱼,公开把我请了出去。曾经是我整个成年生活重心的东西不见了,令我不知所措。有几个月,我实在不知道要干什么好。我觉得我令企
业界的前辈们失望-我把他们交给我的接力棒弄丢了。我见了创办HP的David
Packard跟创办Intel的Bob
Noyce,跟他们说我很抱歉把事情搞砸得很厉害了。我成了公众的非常负面示范,我甚至想要离开硅谷。但是渐渐的,我发现,我还是喜爱着我做过的事情,在
苹果的日子经历的事件没有丝毫改变我爱做的事。我被否定了,可是我还是爱做那些事情,所以我决定从头来过。




当时我没发现,但是现在看来,被苹果计算机开除,是我所经历过最好的事情。成功的沉重被从头来过的轻松所取代,每件事情都不那么确定,让我自由进入这辈子最
有创意的年代。接下来五年,我开了一家叫做
NeXT的公司,又开一家叫做Pixar的公司,也跟后来的老婆谈起了恋爱。Pixar接着制作了世界上第一部全计算机动画电影,玩具总动员,现在是世界上
最成功的动画制作公司。然后,苹果计算机买下了NeXT,我回到了苹果,我们在NeXT发展的技术成了苹果计算机后来复兴的核心。我也有了个美妙的家庭。
我很确定,如果当年苹果计算机没开除我,就不会发生这些事情。这帖药很苦口,可是我想苹果计算机这个病人需要这帖药。有时候,人生会用砖头打你的头。不要丧失
信心。我确信,我爱我所做的事情,这就是这些年来让我继续走下去的唯一理由。你得找出你爱的,工作上是如此,对情人也是如此。




你的工作将填满你的一大块人生,唯一获得真正满足的方法就是做你相信是伟大的工作,而唯一做伟大工作的方法是爱你所做的事。如果你还没找到这些事,继续找,别停顿。尽你全心全力,你知道你一定会找到。而且,如同任何伟大的关系,事情只会随着时间愈来愈好。所以,在你找到之前,继续找,别停顿。



我的第三个故事,关于死亡。




当我十七岁时,我读到一则格言,好像是「把每一天都当成生命中的最后一天,你就会轻松自在。」这对我影响深远,在过去33年里,我每天早上都会照镜子,自
问:「如果今天是此生最后一日,我今天要干些什么?」每当我连续太多天都得到一个「没事做」的答案时,我就知道我必须有所变革了。提醒自己快死了,是我在
人生中下重大决定时,所用过最重要的工具。因为几乎每件事-所有外界期望、所有名誉、所有对困窘或失败的恐惧-在面对死亡时,都消失了,只有最重要的东西
才会留下。提醒自己快死了,是我所知避免掉入自己有东西要失去了的陷阱里最好的方法。




人生不带来,死不带去,没什么道理不顺心而为。




一年前,我被诊断出癌症。我在早上七点半作断层扫描,在胰脏清楚出现一个肿瘤,我连胰脏是什么都不知道。医生告诉我,那几乎可以确定是一种不治之症,我大
概活不到三到六个月了。医生建议我回家,好好跟亲人们聚一聚,这是医生对临终病人的标准建议。那代表你得试着在几个月内把你将来十年想跟小孩讲的话讲完。
那代表你得把每件事情搞定,家人才会尽量轻松。那代表你得跟人说再见了。我整天想着那个诊断结果,那天晚上做了一次切片,从喉咙伸入一个内视镜,从胃进肠
子,插了根针进胰脏,取了一些肿瘤细胞出来。我打了镇静剂,不醒人事,但是我老婆在场。她后来跟我说,当医生们用显微镜看过那些细胞后,他们都哭了,因为
那是非常少见的一种胰脏癌,可以用手术治好。所以我接受了手术,康复了。




这是我最接近死亡的时候,我希望那会继续是未来几十年内最接近的一次。经历此事后,我可以比之前死亡只是抽象概念时要更肯定告诉你们下面这些:




没有人想死。即使那些想上天堂的人,也想活着上天堂。但是死亡是我们共有的目的地,没有人逃得过。这是注定的,因为死亡简直就是生命中最棒的发明,是生命
变化的媒介,送走老人们,给新生代留下空间。现在你们是新生代,但是不久的将来,你们也会逐渐变老,被送出人生的舞台。抱歉讲得这么戏剧化,但是这是真
的。




你们的时间有限,所以不要浪费时间活在别人的生活里。不要被信条所惑-盲从信条就是活在别人思考结果里。不要让别人的意见淹没了你内在的心声。最重要的,拥有跟随内心与直觉的勇气,你的内心与直觉多少已经知道你真正想要成为什么样的人。任何其它事物都是次要的。



在我年轻时,有本神奇的杂志叫做 Whole Earth
Catalog,当年我们很迷这本杂志。那是一位住在离这不远的Menlo
Park的Stewart
Brand发行的,他把杂志办得很有诗意。那是1960年代末期,个人计算机跟桌上出版还没发明,所有内容都是打字机、剪刀跟拍立得相机做出来的。杂志内容有点像印在纸上的Google,在Google出现之前35年就有了:理想化,充满新奇工具与神奇的注记。




Stewart跟他的出版团队出了好几 期Whole Earth
Catalog,然后出了停刊号。当时是1970年代中期,我正是你们现在这个年龄的时候。在停刊号的封底,有张早晨乡间小路的照片,那种你去爬山时会经
过的乡间小路。在照片下有行小字:求知若饥,虚心若愚。那是他们亲笔写下的告别讯息,我总是以此自许。当你们毕业,展开新生活,我也以此期许你们。



求知若饥,虚心若愚。



非常谢谢大家。





星期六, 八月 19, 2006

其实工作以后也可以做夜猫的。



有段时间,晚上一回家就倒头就睡,睡上三四个小时醒过来,发现已经是半夜了~~



于是再上上网做点事情什么的,到四点再睡,也就变成夜猫了。


 



不过八小时拆成两段时间来睡,还是会觉得有些疲倦,以后还是要注意避免,呵呵。

星期三, 八月 16, 2006

关于我的英文名


我在很长的一段时间内都称呼自己为Hauy。



当然在往后更长的一段时间内我还是继续这么称呼自己。


 



这个名字很不错,短小精悍,不会和别人发生冲突,网上注册个什么也不用担心要换别的ID来注册。



唯一的遗憾是……由于不是英文名,所以发音比较郁闷,不只一次地有人叫我"Henry"。


 



至于这个名字怎么来的……咳咳……因为发音和我的名比较接近,可以翻译做“阿于”,更精确一点是“阿雨依”


 


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正因为发音很困难,所以不能把这个名字作为日常使用的英文名。



于是,我不得不从浩如烟海的英文单词中找一个来作为我的英文名。


 



首先,不能取一个像“福奎”、“宝德”、“永茂”这种古韵十足像民国时期的名字。



所以取一个流行化的,类似于Jack、Tom这种名字就很好。如果取一个来自希伯来文、拉丁文的名字,就给人感觉像上上世纪的了。



其次,要好念,当然大部分的名字一看就知道怎么念。



然后,尽量不与公司其他人冲突,至少同一个部门里可以避免,其他部门基本上无所谓。



最后,发音能与我的名接近,但是,我实在找不到这样的英文名。


 


基于以上原则,我最后确定我叫Alan。



据传,英国有一位诗人,叫Alawn(阿伦),很近似于Alan,它的意思,但后来,这个名字常变形为Eilian、Allan、Ailin、A'lon等等。Alan的发音近似于撒格逊语Aylwyn或Alwyn(熟悉的朋友)的意思)。所以它在英国很为人所欢迎。


 


另外,陈幼坚就叫Alan
Chan,他是我的偶像,不错。


 


所以,最后我就叫做Alan Zhou。



我的姓就不改了,受之于父母,不可丢弃。老外不会翘舌,这个不重要。

星期二, 八月 15, 2006

Spaces改版了?



虽然说msn的spaces是世界上使用最广泛的bsp,确是it人眼中一个不入流的bsp。


spaces是一个臃肿,缓慢,迟钝的一个bsp。


 



不过……还是可以用来写写日记的,我以后就在这里写日记吧。


http://www.inpeck.com/blog 还是技术blog